My Mistake...

I’m still at the same place
I’m weary from wandering by your side
Even today, as I was wandering
Day has passed again and again.

Now I’m here
You know that my heart is hurting
Watching you smile makes my heart ache more

It’s my mistake for not making you love me more
It’s my mistake for loving you more than you love me
It’s my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to.

How much longer must I cry
As I’m trusting that promise, believing that promise
You lied to me to wait for you
Even my greedy side has grown tired

I knew I couldn’t have you
But my love for you just kept growing
It’s my mistake for waiting by myself
Regretting by myself loving you.

Even though my heart was hurting
It’s my mistake for not letting you go
I’m such a fool
I knew I would get hurt and couldn’t let go
it’s my mistake

Even though it could be all my mistake
That’s ok. As long as you’re there always…
Please forgive me for being like this.
Forgive the person who loved you...

14th February 2011...

Happy Belated Valentine's Day...

That's The Way I Love You...

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,

or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,

in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms

but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;

thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,

risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.



I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.

I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;

so I love you because I know no other way

in which there is no I or you

so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand

so intimate that when you fall asleep it is my eyes that close

Listen To My Heartbeat...

Can you feel my heartbeat?

The heart that you stepped all over and left
Is still beating and it's beating for you

No matter how hard I try to forget
No matter how many new people I meet
Why do I keep thinking of only you when I turn around
I don't want to do this anymore. I want to stop.
No matter how many times I try and try to stop myself
It's no use cause my heart is broken.

Why do I keep doing such foolish things
I know in my head, but why is my heart rebelling
I'm holding on to you and can't let go.
It still feels like you're next to me.
I can't believe in farewell

No matter who I meet, I can't open up
I keep your place empty
There's no reason for you come back,
But why do I keep thinking that you might come back
Why isn't my heart listening

Listen to my heartbeat
It's beating for you
It's waiting for you
Don't I know that it's over
I don't understand why i'm like this
It still hurts thinking of you
I think of you every time my heart beats

I have to forget
I have to forget in order to live
I have to erase it
If I don't, I'll die
Stop trying to get him back, he ain't coming
He's gone, gotta be moving on
He left, he won't come back
He doesn't think of me

He doesn't know that i'm waiting for him, he's doing well
He already forgot about me, totally erased me.
Why can't I do that

Listen to my heartbeat
It's beating for you
It's waiting for you...

Deep in my heart...

The place that catches my eyes
is the place where he is…
The place that I look for
is the place where his heart remains with mine...

New Year, New Beginning...

Step by step I'm leaving you...
Even it's felt like dying...
I'll never look back...

I'll Live Well...

Even if love leaves me, even if my heart is bruised
It's all just for one moment anyway,
I was able to live well
It's not as if I was going to die

Bury your tears away,
Let's just work for now
Let's just be thankful at the fact that I once loved him to death

It's already in the past, what's the point in saying it?
I can't turn time back
What's the point of picking up my hurting heart again?
There's no point

They say that tears are woman's weapon
Let's not waste those tears on useless things

When I think of you ever so often and start to feel sad
I get with a group of friends and try to have fun in order to forget it all

Hating you won't change a thing so I'll just love you
It's just that I can't see you is all,
I'll think of you as much as I can bear

The wind is blowing past, it's making me shiver and cry
I try to hold it back but my throat is choking up
I try to call your name

I can't forget you even if I tried, I can't erase you
I have to smile like a man and let you go
but all I can do is cry...