It's Only Been a Year But...

Its' only been a year but it's felt longer than that.
It's only been a year but my heart never stop hurting.
It's only been a year but my world seems had it end.

People said memories will be there forever but...
how long will I remember it properly?
how long will I live by treasure it solely?
how long will I have to go on just only with it?

People said time will heal but...
why my heart still bleed?
why my tears can't stop?
why my soul has lost its joy?

Day by day seems hard to go on.
Day by day missing you like crazy.
Day by day regret keep coming to me.
So many what if.

Keep telling my heart to live well, live fully, just live but I just can't.
Need you here to keep me alive.
There's no word to describe how precious you are to me.
I love you mama. I'll miss you forever.

He's not perfect...

I'm not looking for someone who's perfect.
But if he can make me laugh at least once,
causes me to think twice,
and if he admits to being human and making mistakes,
I'll hold onto him and give him the most I can.

I won't hurt him,
I won't change him,
I won’t analyze,
and I won’t expect for more than he can give.

I'll smile when he makes me happy,
yell when he makes me mad,
and miss him when he’s not here.

Because perfect guys don’t exist,
but he will always perfect for me...

Happy New Year...

New year, new journey, new hope...

What is it about me that you love?

“Say… What is it about me that you love? Tell me a reason,”

~Jaejoongie 

“I love you… because you’re my other half, 

I love you because when we stand together, my body yields to you… 

I love you because being with you, everything in my life becomes the best of everything… 

I love you because you’re more to me than you ever understand, you’re everything…”.

~Yunnie

~Yunnie & Jaejoongie, Coffee Baby.

Relationship...

"There’s this case of starting out as friends, and then falling in love without knowing it. I fell in love this way, and I'm not sure why it is so. I just felt that it's really good being with someone who is like me. A person who likes the same things and someone that I would get along with is the type that I would fall for."

~ Jaejoong, AnAn April 2010 Interview

Real Love is...

Love... it's not just the churning in your stomach or the rapid beating of your heart upon seeing, upon being with someone. It's just not that feeling you get when you want so bad to be with someone; when you forget about everything and just see that one person. 

Real love is an act of the will. It's choosing to be with somebody no matter how bad things get. It's not giving into the temptation of leaving when you think things are going down. It's staying even when you don't get butterflies anymore. It's choosing to stay and to continue to care for a person despite anything and everything. That's what real love is.

Planetarium...

The moonlit night shows its face, and the children’s voices disappear
You are somewhere in that distant, distant sky, aren’t you?
Do you remember the constellation we found
When we snuck out to this park at the end of summer?

I want to go to where you are, I want to run there right now
It’s so dark I can’t see a thing, but it’s OK to be scared
Even now, the countless stars in the sky are here
I won’t cry; this is the beautiful sky I looked at with you

The sound of your shoes that echoed as far as that street, still remains in my ears
You’re thinking of it too, aren’t you, as you look at your huge shadow
You’d think I wouldn’t care at all, but a huge pain swells up
No matter how much I think of you, you’re gone

I want to go and be by your side, I may be small, I may be small
But I love you more than anything, and it makes me strong
I tried to make a quiet wish on a shooting star
But I won’t cry, I’m sure it’ll reach that beautiful sky

Even if I can’t see you, I want to trace back over our memories and feel that same happiness
The fireworks burst open, with that scent

I want to go to where you are, and take your little hand
I want to cry, this is, this is, that beautiful sky
I tried to make a quiet wish on a shooting star
But I want to cry, I’ll send the love that won’t reach you into this sky…