Love is...

Love is the new beginning,
love is appreciating every little thing, like food,
love is sharing pains,
love is the feelings of anxiety, lust, desire and want, denial and greed.

Love is uncontrollable, unbreakable, uncertainty, selfish and throbbing pains,
but love is also realization, selfless acts, ultimate happiness, balance and
the ability of letting love go, maybe is an act of love.

Or maybe love is a promise that lives in the heartbeats of those

who are giving it and receiving it.

And when you know what love really is,
love becomes an understatement.

Midnight...

How are you? Do you think of me from time to time?
In this long night, I close my eyes again
I think of you, I can't sleep, this is how I'm doing

The night is especially longer tonight, this night without you
I'm regretting that day I let you go
(Continuously muted and slowly forgotten)
That is how you will be one day

This night I can't fall asleep in So sad tonight
This night I can't spend with you
In the midnight a a a midnight
This Midnight I can't sleep from my thoughts of you

This night that found me again So sad tonight
This night I greet again without you
In the midnight a a a midnight a
This midnight I can't fall asleep without you

You found me faster than the time I take to blink
The love that left me, dear you can’t do this to me
Enough, it's enough, stop hurting me
This night I call pathetic never seems to end

Even though I don't want to bring up past stories
But I must have really liked you
(Continuously remembered and slowly yearning)
As more time elapses

This night I can't fall asleep in So sad tonight
This night I can't spend with you
In the midnight a a a midnight
This Midnight I can't sleep from my thoughts of you

This night that found me again So sad tonight
This night I greet again without you
In the midnight a a a midnight a
This midnight I can't fall asleep without you

That little star twinkling above, comfort me
Tonight is the night where everything collapses with no where else to rest
That little star twinkling above, comfort me
Collapsing without anywhere to rest

The night I count the stars, the night that slowly transforms because of the changing seasons
However, this night is still the night I still can't seem to fall asleep

This night that found me again So sad tonight
This night I greet again without you
In the midnight a a a midnight a
This midnight I can't fall asleep without you

Night I Count the Stars

In the skies with passing seasons
It’s full of the autumn.

Without any worries
I plan on counting all the stars in the autumn sky.

The one or two stars I hold in my heart
The reason I can’t count them
Is it because I realize the morning is coming,
Or it is because I realize I have tomorrow night as well,
It’s because I realize that my youth has yet to pass.

One star the memories
One star the love
One star the loneliness
One star the adoration
One star the poem
One star Mother, Mother

Mother, in one star, I say a beautiful thing at a time.
The names of the students I shared a table with in elementary school, Pe, Kyung, Ock, the names of these foreign students, the name of girls who already became mothers, the names of poor people, pigeons, puppies, rabbits, mule, deer, Fransis Jammes, Reiner, Maria, Rilke, I call out the names of these poets.

They are all so far away from me.
Just like how the stars are

Mother,
And you are far away in Bukgando.

I miss something
On top of this hill covered with so many star lights
I write my name, 
And covered it with dirt.

In its own way, the bug that stays up crying throughout the night
It realizes the embarrassing truth of its name.

But when the winter passes and the spring finds its way to my stars,
Like the green blades of grass growing on a grave mound
On top of the hill with my name written
The grass will grow proudly and flourish

I Am, I’m Music

I'm not a poet
And I can't talk like a poet
I just say whatever that comes to mind
Just whatever path my heart is headed

I'm not an artist
The beauty of light and dark
I can't draw that
I can only draw my heart's hope in my dreams

I'm not an actor
I don't know how to act
I want to live without lies, just the way it is
I want myself to seen the way I am
The way I am

I'm the major, I'm the minor, I'm the chorus, I'm the melody
My word, my sentence, my expression, my rhythm is in the music
I'm the beat, I'm the resting mark, I'm the harmony
I'm the forte, I'm the piano, the dreams and fantasy

I am, I'm, I'm music

I can't imagine my life without music

I'm not a philosopher
I don't know anything
At the place everyone is laughing and huddled around
I'm always just there

I don't know my manners
I can careless if people tell me I'm disrespectful
I despise dull things
I don't want it, I don't need something like an ordinary life

I think my heart is about to burst
I search for freedom and glory
Even though I may not know where I have to go
I'm willing to leave, wherever that may be

Love me exactly the way I am

I'm the major, I'm the minor, I'm the chorus, I'm the melody
My word, my sentence, my expression, my rhythm is in the music
I'm the beat, I'm the resting mark, I'm the harmony
I'm the forte, I'm the piano, the dreams and fantasy

I am, I'm, I'm music

Love me exactly the way I am